Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Jealousy

I'm flattered but yet I'm not. Why are you so jealous of my past? You hold parts of me that no one has ever held but you. You love me where no one else ever has. You are the only man that makes me cum. So why do you dream such horrible dreams? Why do you get all weird at the mention of my ex when you talk about her all the time? Are you really over her? I think not. I don't care if you were with her for the last 5 fuckin years or the last five months, You can't sit here and look me in the face and tell me you are over her when you are absolutly not. When you are over some one you don't talk about them, you don't look for ways to bring them up and you don't tell your current girlfriend that she is acting like your ex wife!!!~!!!!!! Sure I'm jealous that she was the one touching, kissin, holding, and well fuck she held your attention whether is was bad or good. I won't lie I hate her. Because I love you. I don't get all pissy about all the girls you cheated on me with. I don't talk about my exs except the ones where we decided we would make better friends. And to this day are still good friends. I don't have shit from my exs in a box for you to read. I don't hang on to that shit because they mean nothing to me now. When you still have fucking pics of your ex in sexy underwear from when she was like 14 it grosses me out. It is just fucking weird because you are now 24 not fucking 16. And I certainly would not keep letters from other exs especially when those letters were from when you and I were together. I don't want to know that you were pinning for jenny when you were kissing me. The chick in the underwear is married now and I really want you to give those pics back to her. How do you think her husband would feel if he knew you had those pics? Better yet think of how you would feel if baby daddy still had pics of me nearly Naked? You wouldn't like it and in fact you would hate it.
But I'm not complaining I'm just stating that you have no reason to be jealous when I have all the reasons in the world to hate you but don't. Lucky bastard. You are the man I have choosen to spend my life with. Not just this day or week or year but my life. And I have known this since I was 16. That is why I let you go so many times. You never knew what you wanted until it was too late and you were stuck with that ugly nasty lieing cum guzzling bubble on a diesease ridden flea infested gay man ass hole gutter slut. Not my fault. Not my fault you choose her over me back then. And not my fault you cheated on me with those whores. And it is not my fault that I am human and have needs just as you do. My needs needed to be met and well I made sure that they were just like you did. Soyou have not one single reason to act like a jealous fool around me for any reason. You were the one that fucked up not me so don't make me pay for her mistakes. I'm not her nor will I ever be. I am me and no body else. I am my own person just like you are. I don't not make you pay for his or your mistakes. I simply love you for who you are and not what I want you to be. Love me for who I am mistakes and all. Just like I love you.

3 comments:

ez cheese said...

You love people so much that you allow them to hurt you in the deepest of ways. You try not to, but it just doesn't feel like you.

You and I have that in common

Irishwitchgoddess said...

ez~ I have always loved to the fullest, I don't know why. It might be my curse....

ez cheese said...

Only if that is the way you look at it